Your Psyche is Yellow
You have a ton of energy - both physical and mental endurance.
You are rational and logical, and you can help almost anyone think clearly.
Optimistic and bright, you also have a secret side that's a little darker.
When you are too yellow: You will do anything to get your way, and no one will be the wiser
When you don't have enough yellow: you lack confidence, drive, and humor
Monday, March 31, 2008
Sunday, March 30, 2008
It is so cute, and I love it. I also bought these hot black heels:
And these super cute tennis shoe type things:
So it was a very successful shopping trip on my part.
After shopping we grabbed a bite to eat and then headed up to SLC. With our tickets we got a parking pass for under the Church Office Building. That was pretty cool! Then when we got into the conference center, we realized what amazing seats we received....Yes my friends, I sat in the SECOND ROW. Like, one two, second row. It was amazing! My mom was sitting behind Sister Sheri Dew and Elder Russell M. Nelson's wife. She said hello to Sheri Dew...It was awesome. The other awesome thing about being on the second row was the fact that looking right at the speaker was the best view available. :-) So cool....no looking at a T.V. screen for me. :-)
I loved all the talks, especially President Eyering's. It was full of good news, good advice, and many things that I found applicable to my life.
After the conference was over Chilly gave us the opportunity to ride on the carts from the conference center to the church office building parking lot where our car was. We got to go through the entrance that the general authorities get to go through! And the cart ride was fantastic things full of fun! It was through mostly carpet hallways...and a heated parking garage. We weren't cold at all...and we didn't have to walk in heels. That was the best part.
So pretty much, I had an amazing experience going to the YW broadcast. So cool!!!
AND now I am mad at the snow. Yes friends, I have THREE INCHES of snow in my front yard. This is not something to be rejoicing about. Yuck, yuck, yuck. sigh....oh well. Not much I can do about it now, except hate it for the rest of it's life.....
Friday, March 28, 2008
I have two books easy within reach, one that I have no idea what it is, and the other my Book of Mormon. However, Chilly already did the Book of Mormon, so I'll do this other crazy book.
This other book is sitting on my desk at work, and was checked out of the Library (who will be picking it up, today right?) by the Chair of the Department for which I work. It is titled: Team of Rivals by Doris Kearns Goodwin.
Page 123, 5th sentence down... "If he wanted a seat in the U.S. Senate, however, he would need the support of Ohio Democrats, a task that would not be made easier by assaulting a Democratic president."
uhuh... right. okay, now that I look at the title page, the FULL title of the book is: Team of Rivals: The Political Genius of Abraham Lincoln. Okay then....a book that I will probably never read, but that's okay. ;)
AND now dear readers, it's time for you to play along! Instructions are as follows:
1. Pick up the nearest book (at least 123 pages).
2. Turn to page 123.
3. Find the 5th sentence
4. Post the 5th sentence on your blog.
5. Tag 5 people.
And the five people are [drum roll]:
1. CPM (because you love me. ;) )
2. Marisa (because I always tag you, and you always play, plus I have a feeling you are reading some fun things right now. ;) AND you haven't done anything fun yet...just boring updates. ;))
3. Liz (because you told me you still read and I saw you today. congratulations again by the way)
4. Duchess (because we are blogging friends)
5. Jodie (because i know you would like to play too!!!)
And if I didn't tag you, but you want to play along anyways, please do! It's kind of fun and random!!!
The next change that these wonderful winds brought, was a new haircut. I haven't drastically cut my hair in over 2 years. Nothing more than a trim and some new layers has been my standby whenever I have wanted a cut. Not this time!!! I chopped a good 5-6 inches off of my hair and oh my gosh it is gorgeous. I love it. It's short, chic, and sophisticated. I'm told it looks way cute and makes me look hot. Maybe my secret crush will ask me out???? :-) In any case, I went to a fantastic salon in Orem: Suggestions Salon. They were so nice and friendly and she helped me pick something that would look cute on me. My stylist did an excellent job and I will definitely go again. Never mind the $41 price-tag, it was so worth it. :)
Then my friend KC and I went to dinner after our fun hair-cutting party and then went to Target. I bought the cutest new clothes, which helps me feel even prettier today! I'm wearing a gorgeous outfit, of plaid slacks and a teal blouse. It looks amazing on me. :-) I am also going shopping on Saturday with Sister B. I'm hoping to find a cute new summer dress, new shoes, and a couple of tanks and shirts that i will get at DownEast. I love that store.
The final change that is going to happen this weekend is the fact that I'm going to get a new Driver's License! Go me! I'm kind of excited about this change. Although, it has expired, so I have to hope and pray that they don't make me take any tests again. It has only been a couple of weeks though since the expiration, so I should be good right? Here's hoping!!! :-)
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Why might I be so extremely tired? Well, mostly because I spent my entire day either in a huge 12-passenger van, or in an elementary school performing. This is because Theater Ballet and Ballet Showcase joined forces today to go to different elementary schools to present a shortened version of Coppelia. I love doing this because it is so fun to perform the little kids! They enjoy the show SO much! The best part today was the last school in Layton. Those kids were the best audience of the day! They were incredible!!! They laughed, clapped, and thoroughly enjoyed our little performance. My favorite part is when we came on at the end, in these (at least from our point of view) hideous costumes...one peach, one pink (me) one purple, and one blue...well, as we each came on the kids got so excited about our "pretty" dresses! In fact, you could hear the kids saying "I want the red one!!!" (Which one is the red out of peach and pink I have no idea) It was SO cute!!! They also had the funniest questions!!! Oh gosh. So funny. Then, when they were leaving the auditorium this one girl asked me how long I had been dancing (approximately 17 years) and then she told me that I was really good and she really liked watching me. Which was really cute to say! I didn't have any really big parts in this show, in fact, it was only corps de ballet work! So yeah, a boost to my self-esteem, and the reason why I love going to these types of things, even if it makes me super tired!
So now, I think I'm going to chill some more and then visit with my visiting teachers and go to bed. Have a good night y'all.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Here is a pretty artistic shot I took of my pile of stuff in the "dressing room" aka the locker room from Saturday night. I really like how it turned out. :-)
Today has been a pretty good day. I taught a ballet class at BYU again, I only have to do it one more time! Hurrah!
The sun shone, and it was GORGEOUS outside. Walking home was pure bliss. It made me really really happy that the sun was shining. I think running through the grass barefoot will need to happen very soon.
OH! Today I made my appointment at Suggestions Salon for a haircut. Thursday afternoon. I'm very excited about this haircut. It is time for something new. No more long hair. :-) alhtough I have had requests to keep it long, I'm sick of it being long, and it's time to change it up a little bit. I need a new look. I've wanted a new look since January...but was unable to follow that feeling due to my show and the need to have hair in a french twist. No more french twists though!!!! :-)
Saturday, March 22, 2008
This show is somewhat bittersweet for me. This is the end of my Ballet Showcase career. I won't be on the company next year, and I also won't be taking ballet classes like at all. So this is the end of an era for me. I never have to go to rehearsal at ridiculous hours on Saturday mornings. Hurrah! I will miss performing, but at the same time I can focus more of my efforts on choreography, and since that is where my true love lies life will be good.
Now the question is what do I do with all my new found extra time?????
Friday, March 21, 2008
You Are a Tulip
You have a wild, experimental side that craves change.
You often switch jobs and lovers, always looking for something better.
But deep down, you're also very well grounded and content.
And you will come to know that the life you live is already ideal.
What Your Easter Egg Says About You
You are cheerful, friendly, and open minded.
You do your best to make sure everyone is happy, including yourself.
Empathy comes easily to you. You are very forgiving.
You don't hold grudges. You easily forget about any negativity in your life.
I also agree with this one!
You Are an Orange Flower
An orange flower tends to represent boldness, energy, and warmth.
At times, you are courageous, like a poplar tree.
And at other times, you are hopeful, like an orange iris.
And more than you wish, you bond too quickly to people, like a honeysuckle.
I really feel like the last part of this one is true. I do bond too quickly for my own good. sigh. oh well!
My original vision is as follows (although some parts are apt to change due to ability to make it happen.)
Curtain opens with 3 dancers (portraying children) dancing. They are siblings. It is bedtime and "mother" comes in to put them into bed. They each get into their beds, one each in a special that is sort of dim. They begin to fall asleep and as they do so we see the first child (a girl) begin to dream, strains of music that is somewhat classical and sweet begin to play and her dream begins to take place. We see her pretending to be a princess. She dances.
The music begins to change and we see the scene shift over to another child (a boy) where his dream/nightmare of a dragon in the closet begins to take place. He fights off the dragon, but we don't see him slay him, yet.
The music changes again to strains of music for the third child (another boy i think). This is a cowboy and Indian dream.
After we see a bit of each dream the music changes again, but we hear strains from each dream and the dreams begin to merge together. It is now one big, sweet dream. Really, really cool.
Can you see it? I can! It is so clear in my head. Now to find music. This is where my problems lie. Music....however, I have talked to one friend about either him or someone he knows writing music for it. How cool would that be? I'm thinking I want piano music, and then possibly even have it played live. That would be awesome to me. So yeah...I think that is where it is going. If you have any suggestions let me know...and I'll let you know when it premieres!!! :-)
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Plus....I have a show tomorrow and Saturday to keep focused on. Rehearsal went so well tonight and I am very excited to perform tomorrow. So if you haven't already, get your tickets now! And now, I am off to get my much needed beauty sleep.Ciao.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
If I can write three more pages for my research paper between 3pm and 5:30pm then I think I will be squared away. It shouldn't be that bad, and I know where I am going next (I think) so all shall be well. Plus, I'm secretly hoping that rehearsal tonight won't go as long as last night. The reason I think that this wish will come true is because we are running the entire show between 1:30 and 3pm...so we'll have already cleaned everything and then when we run it tonight, it will just be another run through! go us! :-)
Okay...now to finish my healthy second breakfast of donuts...ciao!
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
One of the fun things about staying in the library that long was that when the music came on, I felt like I could talk at a normal sound level and no longer in a whisper. It pretty much made my night that I had that wonderful opportunity. Go me.
Now, some of you might be wondering why I was up so late at night? What happened to the smart Alishka that went to bed at 10:30 so she could wake up at 6:30 in the morning? Well...that Alishka had a Physical Science test to study for, a 5-page paper to write, lighting cues to create, and a lesson plan to revise. And guess what? I got studying in for my test, a thesis and an outline for my 5-page paper due Thursday, I figured out the lighting cues, and revised my lesson plan!!! I felt so accomplished.
Now here I sit at tech rehearsal (the longest, most grueling of all the rehearsals) and I'm taking a break from writing my paper. Mostly because I don't know where I want to go yet with the next section. I have to figure that out, but I know I will be required to stand up in dance in about 5.2 minutes (or something like that) so I don't want to get going and then have to stop. I hate that. My piece looks awesome! I did the lighting for it, and it makes me really happy. I am AWESOME. :-) I hope all y'all are coming to my show! Tickets are going fast so make sure to get yours today. Ciao!
Monday, March 17, 2008
6:50 am- after hitting snooze 3 times I roll out of bed and jump into the shower. This wakes me up and I get ready for a long day on campus.
7:10- Breakfast!!! I LOVE breakfast. It is one of my favorite meals of the day. This morning as I opened my near empty fridge and tried to decide what to feed my body I notice my leftovers from two nights ago. Suddenly Orange Chicken sounds really good. So I heat up the last of my orange chicken and fried rice. It's protein yeah? It might not be my normal breakfast of French Toast, but it will do. ;)
7:45 - I walk out the door to walk to campus. Brr. It is COLD outside. And dark. Curse that awful Daylight Savings Time.
7:55 I reach the bottom of the stairs of death...I take them two at a time to make them go faster and then it's off to work!
8:05 - I clock into work and go up the wonderful elevator to the 4th floor of the building in which I work. Once I get the office opened, I sit at my desk and turn on my lovely computer. I work really hard and work with the best people ever.
8:55 am- I leave my office and go to my wonderfully long major class.
This is the view on my way to my wonderful class...
the classroom in which I have to sit for two freaking hours. No windows, nothing. It's like a dungeon...
this is me during our "break" in the middle of class. It is a fun class, it's just long...and has a lot of crazy busy work.
10:45 - I leave class. At this point in the day I'm usually dying of hunger. Today's snack on the run is pretzels. Yum. Pretzels.
While walking up the sidewalk I see some pretty sweet sidewalk chalk art. Go Spongebob!!
Oh yeah, and then there's the stairs of death for the 2nd time today. Yuck. I hate these stairs. You would think that after walking up them multiple times every day I could grow to like them, but no. Not at all.
11:00 am - I get to my building of work, and well...work. This is the view out the window of my boss's office. It's a gorgeous view, and I love taking a minute to enjoy it every once in a while.
12:05 - I realize I have the best job ever. Why? Oh yes...because I get free lunch. One of the professors had ordered in pizza....and I got to eat leftovers. Go me.
1:15- It's off to class. Again. Down the wretched stairs...I love this tree. It gives great shade in the summer time, and awesome leaves in the fall time. I can't wait for the grass to be really green again so I can run barefoot through it. I love green grass.
1:35 - Ballet Technique starts. Sometimes I stand here:
because I like to stare out the window. However, I think this day I stood somewhere else...but I can't remember, don't hate me.
3:00- Ballet class now being over, I head down to the training room first to do some Pilates exercises...
and then to the fixing part of the training room where the coolest person ever, the dance trainer, fixes me. I love the dance trainer, although secretly I call this the torture chamber. It is not always fun to have to be in here. But in the end it is always worth it.
3:40 - I only have 2o minutes left in my break, and I take this time to read my Book of Mormon
4:00 - Rehearsal Time...This is another corner of the same studio in which I take class, and we're all getting ready. With our show being the 21st and 22nd (YIKES!!) rehearsal time is pressure.
7:00 - Rehearsal ended and as I left the studio I thought y'all might like this picture..
It's true that street shoes aren't allowed...ha ha ha.
7:15 - This week the ballet girls decided we should all go to dinner, so off to dinner we went! We enjoyed a nice meal at a restaurant close to the studio and I got a yummy pulled pork sandwich.
8:05 - Tonight I had to get my Ecclesiastical Endorsement so I can stay at my college. :P It didn't take very long, but was still sort of a pain.
9:00 - Now why this isn't a normal Thursday activity, it did happen, so I will tell you of it. I had a date! Go me! This date was with ST, the boy I met at my birthday party. We went to Smart Cookie and then back to his apartment to watch a movie. It was a lot of fun and the date went really well.
1:00 am - I get back from my date (I told you it went well...) and went to bed. Hurray for bed.
There you go, a day in the life of Alishka. It's pretty much always like that. School, work ,dancing, a date here and there....kind of boring but I actually had some fun taking pictures for it, so I hope you enjoyed it. Have a great day y'all and Happy St. Patrick's Day! Don't forget to wear green! (My problem always being which green shirt to wear, not where am I going to find green? lol)
Saturday, March 15, 2008
1. Opening credits:
Be Our Guest – Beauty and the Beast
Ma chere Mademoiselle, it is with deepest pride
and greatest pleasure that we welcome you tonight.
And now we invite you to relax, let us pull up a
chair as the dining room proudly presents -
What a great way to open my life movie!! :) I love this movie.
2. Waking Up:
Pride and Prejudice: Dawn
Beautiful music…great to wake up to!
3. First Day of School:
Suavemente –Elvis Crespo
que quiero sentir tus labios
besandome otra vez.
(Gently, you kiss me that I want to feel your lips kissing me again.)
Right….that’s a great way to start school. Ha ha ha.
4. Falling in love:
Africa – Toto
Its gonna take a lot to drag me away from you
There’s nothing that a hundred men or more could ever do
I bless the rains down in Africa
Gonna take some time to do the things we never had
I think this is probably one of the best songs ever, a perfect falling in love song. I like it.
5. First Kiss song:
Kiss Kiss – Chris Brown
She want that lovey dovey (lovey dovey)
That kiss kiss (kiss kiss)
Ha ha ha. A little rock for a first kiss…but hey, it works yah?
6. Breaking up:
Time to Say Goodbye – Andrea Bocelli and Sarah Brightman
Italian lyric goodness…I love this song, and it’s a great good-bye song. :(
My Life – Billy Joel
I don't need you to worry for me cause I'm alright
I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, and leave me alone
Okay then…this must be the one of those non-slow dance type of songs. A good song though.
I Have Decided – Amy Grant
I have decided,
Im gonna live like a believer,
Turn my back on the deciver,
Im gonna live what I believe.
A good song for my life. I like it.
9. Mental breakdown:
Seduces Me – Celine Dion
I don't care about tomorrow
I've given up on yesterday
Okay…so I pulled the lyrics out of context, but it works yes?
Far Far – Yael Naïm
how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
A good driving song. A very good driving song.
Loving Arms – Dixie Chicks
I’ve been too long in the wind
Too long in the rain
Taking any comfort that I can
Looking back and longing for
The freedom of my chains
And lying in your loving arms again
If you could hear me now
Singing somewhere through the lonely nights
Dreaming of the arms that held me tight
If you could only hear me now
The perfect Flashback song to an old relationship. Been there, done that.
12. Getting back together:
Save the Last Dance for Me – Michale Bublé
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Yeah…definitely works. ;)
Elephant Love Medley – Moulin Rouge
Love is a many splendored thing,
Love lifts us up where we belong,
All you need is love!
Okay…so the song just might really be about being a prostitute, but honestly, it has some good lines for a wedding song yah?
14. Birth of a child:
Everything I do, I do for you – Movie sounds version
This is the non-word version I have on my computer. I like it for this because it sounds more like a lullaby and is very sweet. :-)
15. Final battle:
If I Fall You’re Going Down with Me – Dixie Chicks
’cause if I fall you’re going down with me
You’re going down with me baby if I fall
You can’t take back every little chill you gave me
Your going down wih me babt heart and all
This is perfect for a battle. Cause if I fall…
16. Death scene:
Aqueous Transmission - Incubus
I'm floating down a river
Oars freed from their holds long ago
Lying face up on the floor of my vessel
I marvel at the stars
And feel my heart overflow
I love this song. We did a really cool dance to this song once upon a time…and the lyrics are good for a death scene too.
17. Funeral song:
You’ll Be in My Heart – Tarzan
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
A great funeral song. So good.
18. End credits:
Chicken Dance – Swiss Accordian
No one can forget the chicken dance. I want people to leave the movie of my life with a really catchy tune in their head…or at least an annoying one they can’t forget. :) Because I’m cool like that.
Okay…that was fun. Now back to my homework.
Friday, March 14, 2008
See, I believe you can be happy after one choice, being happy is a choice and you can do that at any point. However, I do believe (and my friend pointed this out last night as we were watching said movie) that you can become happier with the more choices you make. See as long as I keep making the right choices I will become more and more happy. Isn't that a good thought? Becoming happier? I love being happy. It's a wonderful thing and I try to be a happy a lot of the time. I do have my sad moments, but I try to make those moments pass as quickly as I can. I hate being down. So I try to choose things that will make me happy and then I can continue being happy. :-) Go me.
So...I promised I would tell you about ST, and I will divulge a little bit of information here. ST and I met at my ridiculously awesome birthday party that I had with my Twin. He was a friend of my Twin's. At the end of the party he asked for my number and then he promptly used that number the following Monday. Due to plans already set in stone for today and tomorrow, we decided to go on a date last night. Ice cream and a movie (although the movie part was decided upon later in the evening). We had a blast and life is good right now. We already have plans again! :-) Happy, happy Alishka. Have a great weekend y'all. I know I will!! Disney on Ice with a great friend, Prom for my sister (which means I get to play hairdresser), wedding reception for my best friend from elementary school, and time with my family! Huzzah!!
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
In other news...I sent Sister Truit to the MTC today. I was her "family" and i'm not even going to try and hide it...but I lost it. I cried. I am so sad to see her go,and yet so extremely joyful at the same time. I love Sister Truit to death, she's been my hero, my roommate, my rock, and my best friend in so many ways. She is going to be an incredible roommate and I look forward to being the best pen pal a missionary can have. ;)
I should be studying for a test, doing two chapter of Physical Science and writing a research paper, but instead I am people watching in the HFAC while attempting to get something done. yeah right. maybe after my ballet class that I'm going to take tonight....guess we'll find out. lol.
Okay, I'm going to go and attempt to study now. Wish me luck.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
roommate truit (soon to be sister truit) is the best. she bought me dinner tonight followed by ice cream (yum) and now she's going to rub out this back a bit. Then it's off to bed for little Alishka before waking up tomorrow morning for another great day. After the MTC I think I might go to the temple since I'm missing ballet classes anyways...and then I'm going to study like a madwoman and try to get some research done, etc etc. [sigh] life is so busy these days, but i wouldn't have it any other way. I like being busy. remind me to tell you about st....a cute new boy in my life....but i'm going to go now....that's a story for another day.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Soon I will be leaving to head to the South Jordan area to pick up roommate Truit so she can stay with me before she leaves on her mission on Wednesday. I am so excited for her, she's going to be freakin' amazing. Sigh.
Oh yeah, I have a test tomorrow, maybe I should study for that instead of blogging....lol. Off to study! ciao!
Sunday, March 09, 2008
Now my life gets cRaZy!!!
Last night I had a crazy party with my Twin J. It was a blast and SO many of my friends came to see me! Seriously, most of Twin J's friends showed up much later in the evening, however my friends came in my numbers throughout the night. I saw everyone from CPM, to BC, BKT, and TCK. I also saw old friends from high school, my old neighbor, made new friends, and gave out my phone number to a boy. ;) It was successful party. I love my birthday!! I enjoy seeing people I know and care about. I love it when they come to see me and play with me. I have awesome friends. I really, truly do. It was wonderful.
Now...starts my life of super craziness. I have a show in 2 weeks. We are on stage in exactly one week. During that time I have to teach the ballet class I have been assisting for my methodology class, and write and turn in a research paper for that class as well. Oh yeah, I also get to continue practicing for my piano class, studying physical science, and trying to have a social life. uh-huh right. And as CPM told me, try not to have a melt down like last semester. We'll see how that goes. :P
And now I have to prepare myself to loose an hour...this could be bad, very, very bad. Pray that I don't die k? Much love to all y'all and thanks for the birthday wishes!!! :)
Friday, March 07, 2008
And in celebration....a comic that chillygator sent me this morning....
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
My mom and sister B are out shopping for...something. I think it had to do with Prom, and they were also going to get fun food for our girl's night out. So in my dream I was good friends with Will an Superman. So the other thing i remember in this dream is that Uncle Phil was the bad guy. And this bad guy tried to do something to me, exactly what I am not sure. So Will is in a pickle because it's his uncle, and then Superman comes in trying to help the next thing I know is somehow I am bleeding somewhere on my back, and I've thrown my three-hole punch from work at the uncle. It's miraculously knocked him out and Will is attending to him, but before he did that he told me that it was okay that I had knocked out his uncle.
Superman comes running towards me...this next part is hazy. Then Coworker L is using the Clorox wipes to clean up the blood that is on my back. The next thing I remember is my mom and Sister B are back.
Me and my weird dreams....
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Yesterday was a crappy day. It had it's moments of happiness that shone through the clouds of crappy-ness, but for the most part it wasn't a good day. Today, however, was much, much better. (that seems like a lot of commas in one sentence. oh well.)
I woke up this morning invigorated at the day that I had ahead of myself. I made myself some French toast...mmmm....I love French toast. :)
I got ready with my roommates and my hair actually turned out how I imagined it would and it looked so good with my cute suit coat that I decided to wear today. I looked really cute if I do say so myself. ;) Then I resigned myself to sitting in a hard blue chair in the Smith Fieldhouse on campus for two hours. However, the words of wisdom spoke to me was worth the soreness given to me by the "blue seats."
After our new Stake Presidency bore their testimonies we had the opportunity to hear from Elder Osguthorpe speak to us on charity. He referenced Moroni 7:47 where it says, "But charity is the pure love of Christ, and it endureth forever and whoso is found possessed of it at the last day, it shall be well with him."
He told of three enemies of charity: Self-doubt, self-indulgence, and self-absorption. The part that hit me the hardest was the enemy of charity that is self-doubt. He said that we all have self-doubt at times, which many times leads us to giving up. He said that things can't get worse when we try to do better. We can't do any worse than zero! He said many other things, that really struck to my heart. I realized that this self-doubt is very much something I have at times. Sometimes I think that by trying to do better and achieve those things I want I will fail...so I do not try. However, Elder Osguthorpe is so right in saying how can things get worse? I mean really...if do not try I will be at zero. If I try and fail, I will be at zero and therefore will be no worse than if had not tried at all. However, with trying there always comes the chance that something good will happen! Some window or door will open because of my actions and then I will be better off. How cool is that? I CAN TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE! And it can be everything I have ever dreamed it will be. It will take time, but I know that everything that has been promised to me will come true. I know it will, and today's talks were there to remind me of that.
Elder L. Tom Perry stood after that and spoke to us; what an amazing witness of the Savior he is! He spoke to us of the priesthood and the succession that happens in our church. He shared how President Monson was set apart, and that was really cool to hear about that experience. He's such a good man with a strong testimony and I loved hearing from him. I am much more excited about General Conference...and it will be here in a month! I know that it is going to be amazing and full of spiritual goodness that it's hard to contain my excitement. :-D
OH! and something I almost forgot...Sister Julie B. Beck is speaking to the Young Single Adults today in a CES fireside. I love Sister Beck and her words of wisdom always are exactly what I need to hear, so tonight's fireside should be one full of gold nuggets.
Life is good. There is sun shining through my window. I will take control of my life and it will be everything I have dreamed.
Saturday, March 01, 2008
THEN i had a rib (i think) pop out of place this morning. It hurt like hell. It was awful. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't move, and then I cried because it hurt so bad which made it even worse because when you cry you don't breathe normal. I was finally able to sit still and breathe slowly and I felt okay. I couldn't move, lying down hurt, and I just wanted to cry but had to try not to because it hurt so bad. Almost an hour later I stood up to mark through some new choreography and something moved (I don't know what, I couldn't really tell that it moved) and I was able to breathe normal, and dance again! However, the muscle where that rib is was very tender the rest of hte morning. I think the rib isn't completely back in place because it hurts in the back now, but at least I can breathe unlike when it was so out in the front. I wouldn't wish that kind of pain on anyone. It was honestly horrible.
So after all that ended at 12:30 I made my way to upper campus to record some parts of my piano assignment, and go to a piano recital. The recital went well and it lent to some creative juices for me to create a story line/plot of my senior project. I am somewhat excited about it and now just need to find the right music for it. I got to my apartment at like 3:20, I quickly changed into a skirt and then walked back up to campus for Stake Conference. It was very good and I am renewed. The general session tomorrow should be amazing seeing as Elder L. Tom Perry is going to be in attendance. I am SO excited for that! He is amazing and I love his talks, and to think he'll be there to speak to me! Hurray, hurray!
I then made my way home, and I'm mad at the weather because it has turned so cold again. Sigh...thus the way March works. Hopefully it gets warm again for my birthday...it better.....
Now hear I sit. Trying not to get frustrated, cry, or be mad at the world. I have many things to be thankful for and to be happy about. I am being productive and doing my homework so I don't die next week. I can do this...I can do this.... I can do this....