in this moment...

Hey guys. I'm sorry. I feel like I'm constantly apologizing for not posting enough. The thing is...I really just don't have the time. There will probably be a time in my life when I post a ton again, but right now is just not it and you know what? I'm okay with that! I will keep trying to post from time to time, but the thing is this blog is not needed for what it was originally created for - a venting place for my stories about ballet and boys. I'm not in school anymore, I have found the love of my life (and even though it's not official yet, SPOILER: we're going to get married someday in the future) and I am so fulfilled in my life in other ways that I don't need this blog in the same way.

There's a part of me that has even considered starting a new blog - no pseudonyms attached and moving on with my life. Need I be anonymous anymore? I don't know....I wonder the same thing  about my twitter account. The more I get involved in work with social media, the more I wonder if I need to be doing more of my social media things with my real name...and not my cute pseudonym that my mom still uses as my nickname at home.

And yet, this blog still holds a special place for me and starting new sounds...hard. Or something. I like my little blog space here. It has treated me so well and I would feel bad abandoning it.

So...please bear with my while I try to figure out what in the world I'm doing in the blogging world. I know I'll figure it out someday. Maybe I'll just reveal my real identity into the world and what not. I don't know. What I do know is that something has got to be figured out.

Anyways. I have tons of other things to talk about and maybe if I have some time in the future we'll get to those things, for now, thank you for sticking around and reading my sporadic, crazy posts. I'm sure I'll figure things out.

Eventually.

Thursday Things Update Style

So...I know that Thursday Things sometimes ends up being an update of sorts and today's post is no exception. I haven't posted in a couple of weeks and for that, I apologize. Life has been treating me so well and has been so insanely busy that I just haven't had time to be here....but I am here today! Hopefully you didn't miss me too much....

without further ado....

• Since the last time I blogged I have:
• signed a contract for a new apartment.
• rented a storage unit
• begun the awful process of moving. oh how I hate moving.
• saw The Amazing Spiderman movie. SO GOOD.
• Went camping w/Solider Boy's ward
• threw my sister a baby shower
• went to my last meeting as a Relief Society President.

• so yeah. I've been busy. which is good. the next three weeks? also going to be busy. in the next three weeks I will:
• go to my family reunion in New Mexico. I'll get to see my grandpa who I haven't seen in about 8 years and introduce my boyfriend/future fiance to my family. 
• yes. you read that right. someday Soldier Boy is going to go from being my boyfriend to being my fiance to being my husband. Currently there is no timeline for these events, other than we want them to happen and I can't wait for that day.
• I will move out of my current apartment and be "homeless" for eight days.
• Go to Soldier Boy's family reunion. That will be crazy fun times.
• Move into my new apartment. (SO EXCITED!!!)

•  Because I'm moving, I'm being released as Relief Society President. This is bittersweet for me. I have loved my calling and I love my sisters, but at the same time I'm a little burned out and am ready for change in my life.

• I've recently had my nails done twice with shellac polish and oh. my. gosh. BEST THING EVER guys! Seriously! This stuff doesn't chip, it just grows out and it's fantastic and I love it so much. also. my friend who does it? she's adorable and does fun things.

• I just turned on Pandora at work and all I asked of the Pandora gods was for good things to be played today. The first song on my Today's Hits/80s Pop/Contemporary Country mix? Bon Jovi. You Give Love A Bad Name. Well-played Pandora gods. Well-played.

• My boyfriend is seriously amazing. I love him so much. We always have the best time when we're together.

• oh and his daughter? She's the cutest thing ever. Seriously, love her. I made her this dress from Pinterest a couple of weeks ago and she looks ADORABLE in it. :o)

• I am very excited to spoil my future nephew. He'll be here in about 8 weeks! eek! 

• You know what's really awesome? life. I love life. 

Hope everything is going well with all y'all. :o) Here's to the rest of summer being AWESOME! Until the next time....ciao!

Marvelous Monday Meanderings

My dearest friends!

It has been FAR too long since my last (sort of depressing) post! I apologize for that! So many amazing things have been happening and life is splendidly wonderful and I have a rosier/happier outlook on life. Granted, there are still hard things BUT they are suddenly more manageable. Funny how that happens.

FIRST off, there was the 182nd Annual General Conference of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. It was a wonderful weekend where I was spoiled with lots of quality time with my future boyfriend, Soldier Boy. We also had the wonderful opportunity (thanks Chilly!) to go to the Afternoon Session in the conference center, which is ALWAYS a treat. We had a blast.

SECOND off, we (Soldier Boy and I) got GREAT news this week and it puts us one step closer to being in a real-life, public relationship. :o) I can't wait to kiss that boy again. He drives me crazy (in a good way) and I can't wait until I can call him mine for reals.

THIRDLY, one of the two studios I teach for had their year-end concert this weekend: Emotions are in Motion. I got to be a mime and it was REALLY fun! I enjoyed my moments on stage and got a kick out of playing with the audience. Good times. Also, this means that I am done teaching for said studio. HUZZAH for open Monday evenings! I'm so excited about this, I'm not quite sure WHAT to do with myself! :o)

MOVING right along.... I found this amazing quote from the ever brilliant wily brunette and I just HAD to share it with you.

"You're going to discover that conversations are best at 4 am. The heavier the eyelids, the sincerer the words. Those are the talks you'll remember. It's okay not to know the answer and silence is not awkward. It's shared, so share it more often than not."

Jeff Stuckel

There is truth in this statement yo. Soldier Boy and I always seem to have the BEST conversations in the early morning hours when we're so tired and really should be in bed. I love it.

FINALLY, I promise to be a better blogger. Or at least TRY to be a better blogger. Then maybe this whole catch up thing wouldn't seem so daunting because everything would be current. Have a lovely Spring day!

P.S. You should check out my friend and her blog post that went up yesterday about Sparkling. She's a lovely writer with a lovely thoughts on life and she's constantly reminding me to be the best person I am. Seriously, I don't know how I would get through some days without her. :o)

Sunday afternoon nap dreams

I took a nap yesterday afternoon. It was glorious - for the most part. I say for the most part because as my phone went off with a text from my roommate, I got pulled out of the MOST bizarre dream I have ever had. So, I wrote down some thoughts on this dream, I've recounted it three times (to Roommate A, to her ex-boyfriend and Blindman, and finally to The Australian.) but here it is for all of my posterity and friends and random people to see. I'd love to hear your thoughts on what this dream might mean.... :o) Also, stay tuned for some awesome posts this week...if I can find the motivation to blog. :o)

So in my dream I'm at my parent's old house in Payson, but it's not quite in the same location. We're more in the countryside. ANYWAYS, I step outside and there's this woman standing outside staring at me. I offer her a brownie (or she offered me one? that part is hazy) and then she says, "do you want to see a prophecy come true?" Of course I respond in the affirmative. She tells me to look to the East and as I do I see a cloud turning into a horse w/a rider on it. He rides as far as I can see to the West and then within a moment or two I see it coming back and disappearing into the cloud storm in the East. A few minutes later it happens again and again and again. I start freaking out and I run inside to grab my mom, Brother C and Sister D. I yelled at them to get on Facebook (everyone talks about things on Facebook!) and the news so we can figure out what is happening.

Then I took them outside. (This is where it gets WEIRD!) So we go outside and the cloud-horse/rider had a lightning bolt thing going on and the next thing I know this horse and rider cloud is turning into a real horse/rider and as he rides across the sky he falls off the horse. The man looks Mexican and as he gets up he starts speaking in a  language that I don't recognize. He tries to talk to me and all I can say over and over is "Can I help you sir?" He rides back up this mountainside that is like right next to our house and disappears. In just a few minutes a whole bunch of people on white horses start riding out towards the West out of the mountain or something. They are all different ages, genders and nationalities with these weird green glowy eyes. As they get closer we can here them changing things like "don't forget.....remember the.....you need to do this....." (i obviously don't really remember what they were saying. but it was odd)

I was then jolted awake by a text message from my roommate and as I tried to pull myself from this weird dream all I could see were the green glowy eyes.

So yeah, that happened. I keep thinking about it. It was the oddest dream I have ever had in all my years of dreaming.

it will come

so. i have stories and updates and wonderful things. BUT work is very busy and I just don't have time right now. so instead, i'm going to leave you with this awesome comic I saw today and call it good. I'll be back with everything wonderful for you....another day. ;)

Friday Foto

So, I like to visit this site called we heart it. They have pretty pictures that a lot of times I use in varying blog posts. I know some of them will be perfect for certain things, others I just favorite because I like them and I think I'll need them later. (very great depression era of me I know. get over it)

Anyways, I've decided that some Fridays (not all, but some, often? who knows) I will share a favorite photo (or two? who knows!) or foto with you. I will also create a caption to go with it. Maybe. I haven't decided if that's actually going to happen all the time. Maybe you can help caption some of the photos? guess we'll see. So yeah. Look for that below.

Also, I did some rearranging on the blog and put together some "pages." there's an about me page and a page i've titled "newbies." This page has a handful of blog posts from my past that I thought might be pertinent to getting to know my blog and my blogging style. so yeah, if you're knew and haven't read anything from the archives be sure to check that out.

So here we are, Friday Foto time. I chose this picture because it makes me happy in so many ways. Have a lovely weekend y'all.

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