Sunday, June 01, 2008

feelings...

I hate feeling insecure. I hate feeling like something hard is coming. I hate the feeling that soon I am going to lose it all and start to cry at the most inopportune time. Up until 20 minutes ago I wasn't sure what was causing all these feelings. I wish there was something about it that I could do, but it's that time of year. With a huge paper due tomorrow (with 2 pages to go) another paper due on Tuesday, a test due Tuesday, and a test that will need to be done by Thursday (i think) its no wonder that I am an emotional train wreck waiting to happen. Part of me thinks that having someone to hold me and tell me it will be okay would make it better, but at the same time I know that I have to be strong. Because really the thing is I don't have someone to hold me and tell me it will be better. However, I have my Savior. He is always there for me and can pull me into his arms and comfort me and let me know that it will be okay. So for now that is where I am turning, to my big brother, my Savior, my Redeemer. I know in the end it will be okay and I'll learn something new about myself, but until I do feel okay I am giving it all to him. He can handle all of this. I can't. Not right now. There is too much going on for me to handle, I can't take it anymore. I am done. Good night.

2 comments:

Puffy Version of Chels said...

Have you checked to see if your period is late? Because last time I had that feeling I ended up with a very puffy enormous stomach 7 months later. Just a sugestion

Tiburon said...

I hope you get the relief you need. It is okay to say you can't do it all!