boyfriend gets demoted

actually he demoted himself. you see...we're no longer dating. he wants to take a 'break.' let me tell you the story...

We went on a walk last night and he told me that he thought I was awesome and that he really liked going out with me, but that he hadn't felt that 'connection' and that he wanted to take a break. Whatever that means. I told him I understand, and that that is okay.

Actually, it's way okay. I was talking with my co-worker yesterday about Boyfriend and how I was surprized that we were still dating cause I didn't think we'd make it to the holiday season (I was so right!). And that I wasn't feeling a special connection either. I just felt like it was normal and that we were just having fun, but I have never felt that I loved him. Never. Liked, yes, loved, no. Especially after my patriarchal blessing and a blessing my dad gave me at the beginning of the year, I was inclined to say that Boyfriend wasn't him. And I'm pretty sure he's not. And you know what? That's okay! I got some more experience with boys and dating (and what it's like when the boy does pretty much all the asking and i only asked him on like 2 dates) and that will benefit me in the future.

Plus I have two missionaries coming home in the next 6 months or so (one in february and one in july...that's longer than six months but oh well.) and i really want to go on a couple of dates with the feb. missionary, but i also feel that the july missionary is a super good friend of mine and i don't think i can just let that friendship go. so we'll see. in the meantime, i am having a blast with ballet showcase and am loving life. and i'm ready for the holidays.