in this moment...

Hey guys. I'm sorry. I feel like I'm constantly apologizing for not posting enough. The thing is...I really just don't have the time. There will probably be a time in my life when I post a ton again, but right now is just not it and you know what? I'm okay with that! I will keep trying to post from time to time, but the thing is this blog is not needed for what it was originally created for - a venting place for my stories about ballet and boys. I'm not in school anymore, I have found the love of my life (and even though it's not official yet, SPOILER: we're going to get married someday in the future) and I am so fulfilled in my life in other ways that I don't need this blog in the same way.

There's a part of me that has even considered starting a new blog - no pseudonyms attached and moving on with my life. Need I be anonymous anymore? I don't know....I wonder the same thing  about my twitter account. The more I get involved in work with social media, the more I wonder if I need to be doing more of my social media things with my real name...and not my cute pseudonym that my mom still uses as my nickname at home.

And yet, this blog still holds a special place for me and starting new sounds...hard. Or something. I like my little blog space here. It has treated me so well and I would feel bad abandoning it.

So...please bear with my while I try to figure out what in the world I'm doing in the blogging world. I know I'll figure it out someday. Maybe I'll just reveal my real identity into the world and what not. I don't know. What I do know is that something has got to be figured out.

Anyways. I have tons of other things to talk about and maybe if I have some time in the future we'll get to those things, for now, thank you for sticking around and reading my sporadic, crazy posts. I'm sure I'll figure things out.

Eventually.

CHALLENGE

I am going to tell you all about a challenge I am giving myself. Why? So that I'll report somewhere and you can hold me accountable in a way that only you, the blogosphere can. :o)

This week (i.e. from Today until 9/18 - the next 7 days) I am going to refrain from MINDLESS TV WATCHING. 

What is "mindless TV watching?" I am defining "mindless TV watching" as that of turning on the TV to flip channels until something suitable turns on as "background noise." It might be something you've seen before, or it might be something you've always wanted to watch but haven't seen before. It could also be something that you saw the beginning, middle, end of but not the rest of it. How many of us do this "mindless TV watching?" Am I the only one? I always turn on the TV during lunch, while making dinner after I get home from work and on Sunday afternoons while I take a nap (or evenings while I work on a project). As I sat on the couch last night mindlessly watching TV trying to unwind from a long day of meetings I realized that I was wasting precious moments that could be better spent doing projects that are lying around unfinished, reading books that need to be read, or visiting with friends and family that I love. (also, this was partly spurred by the CES Fireside in which Elder and Sister Oaks spoke to the youth of the church. Sister Oaks' words really hit home for me several times.)

So there you go. I didn't turn on the TV when first stepping into my apartment today for lunch. Instead, I continued talking to my mom, ate lunch, and read one chapter from a church book and a few chapters from my fictional read for the week. I feel very accomplished. :o) I will only watch TV that I PLAN to ahead of time to watch. I won't just turn on the TV to "find" something to watch. So, pretty much the only thing that I will probably watch this week will be the BYU-U of U football game on Saturday night. ;) Bored on a Friday night and want to turn on the TV? I will either browse the TV guide online FIRST or I will do something else  better with my time because I have thousands of projects and articles to read that will be better for me compared to mindless TV watching.  If I want to watch a movie or something, I'll find one that I haven't seen in my drawer not waste my time flipping channels.

so here goes,

wish me luck!